looking at them, you wouldn't think they're on the path towards separation. an effortless facade, they need to put up for none other than themselves. it's heartbreaking to see him not knowing how to behave anymore; not a shred of credibility left to act upon his supposed authority, yet there's no way for him to show that defeated soul either. it's even more unimaginable to try and feel what she's been through over the decades. obligations one after another doesn't kill only pents up and rottens nasty within her. not examined closely, she'd be the easier one to blame. matters have gone far beyond pointing faults, or taking on blames though. tiring, is to say the least.

does tough loving all life long make sense? people come and go all the time, it's supposed to come natural. so now, get up. cos people around the world have far more devastating lives than this. no biggie.

at least that's what i keep telling myself..(even though we all bloody well know it's not working)..